Your smile seeps into my skin
With it comes the chill of winter wind
I dream of freezing in the light of your eyes
Instead I burn in this filthy disguise
Like a cave lost in the depths of the sea
I'm blind in my desperate frantic pleas
With only insecurities to keep me company
I only wish I kept myself free
Just as the sun shines dim every day
The moon has never enjoyed its stay
The clouds are always a new shade of grey
And the stars have got nothing to say
Time moves like a tree in the wind
Guiding me through the fool within
Helplessly awaiting for fate's call
Pretending life has never really mattered at all
I always saw you as the angel that would guide me to my tomb,
Never once the devil that would keep me trapped here, within this dreaded room.
I always felt that you would bring a smile back to this dying face,
Never once had I taken a look at the feelings which everyone tried to erase.
I always wished that life would revolve around anyone who wished they could be me,
Never have I focused my attention on the ones who cared for no fee.
I always viewed you as a friend
Nothing more than a back up plan
Even when you left so far away
I never knew that my heart would break.
I thought I could get by fine with out you
I thought there was nothing for me in you
Until that night, you caught me by surprise
And showed me so much more.
Youre more than I imagined,
You send me back in evolution
You are so unfamiliar when youre everything I need,
You feel So far away,
I feel so out of place
I've never felt like this before,
This feeling is as familiar as you.
Is what I'm feeling truly love?
Or is only simple lust?
I wish I knew which was which,
It all feels th
Lost,
On This road again
Amazed at where I am
This never seems to end.
Driven by whats best for me,
Every turn that I take,
Trying hard to be safe,
Takes me back to where I am.
There's this place that I have found
With no one else around,
I can't stop telling myself
That I'm safe and sound
With no one to hurt,
And no one to hurt myself.
Fake smiles are easy to wear,
Pretending I don't have a care
Just play it safe, don't take a chance
Because I don't need to care;
That I'm blind to whats happening to me,
Desensitized to becoming weak
Failing to see,
That playing it safe,
Is really whats been killing me.
Dear ,
I have something I need to tell you, something I dont think I can hold inside me any longer; A feeling that Ive kept inside me for as long as I can remember knowing you. I like you more than just a friend, every time we hug I never want to let you go, every time I look in your eyes I drown in their beauty, nothing on this earth comes close to them, Id rather catch a small glimpse of your irresistible eyes than gaze into the depths of the vast sea, the tropical rainforest, or the starlit sky. Everything about you is wonderful, your heart-warming smile that brings peace to me heart every time I see it, your soft hair t
Lost in thought,
Lost in me,
Where am I?
Where should I be?
What do you think
When you look at me?
Am I lost?
Am I me?
Do I have a choice?
What do you see?
What's there to see?
What's there in me?
When a friend is all I need,
I cant ever seem to see,
Why theyre never here for me.
Or am I just too blind to see,
That no one ever leaves,
Maybe this is all I am,
An empty book with no end
Maybe there was no one there,
Or maybe Im just scared.
Is this what made me believe,
That no one is there for me?
Now if love had really cared
It would have shown me how to prepare
For its departure, and its wicked friend,
The only one who could understand.
For when theyre gone,
I cant move on.
This absence of reckless love,
The cause of this desperate fear.
The source of this grim belief
That no one is her
I dont know how Im feeling,
I dont know if I understand.
I dont know how youre doing,
I dont know if I ever could.
I dont know if I ever tried,
Or if I ever should.
There are so many places I should and shouldnt be,
But I find myself sitting here, lost within this feeling.
Are you thinking of me? I keep thinking to myself.
Do I really matter? Am I worthy of your calls?
When I find myself next to you, the butterflies tell me no.
Ill see you here, Ill meet you there, youre everywhere I go.
Every time I try to say hello, my voice jus
Look at me
Im being better than the best I can be.
Look at me
Am I better than the dog I used to be?
Look at me
Am I what you want to see?
Look at me
Am I what I want to be?
Look at me
What do you see?
Look in the mirror and all I see,
Is an unthoughtful sinner staring back at me.
He looks in my eyes, and begins to ask,
What do you hope to accomplish underneath my mask?
I lose myself again and shatter his face,
The seven bad years should do us good.
Chorus:
What do you do when you cant be controlled?
What do you do when no one looks up to you?
What do you do when you cant live with yourself?
Y
I stare deep into your sky blue eyes, soaring, lost in their endless beauty.
Feeling the warmth of your arms, wrapped in mine.
Never again to be wrapped around my cold, trembling knees.
Your warm care overwhelming the cold void in me.
A feeling, I never want to forget.
Your smile seeps into my skin
With it comes the chill of winter wind
I dream of freezing in the light of your eyes
Instead I burn in this filthy disguise
Like a cave lost in the depths of the sea
I'm blind in my desperate frantic pleas
With only insecurities to keep me company
I only wish I kept myself free
Just as the sun shines dim every day
The moon has never enjoyed its stay
The clouds are always a new shade of grey
And the stars have got nothing to say
Time moves like a tree in the wind
Guiding me through the fool within
Helplessly awaiting for fate's call
Pretending life has never really mattered at all
I always saw you as the angel that would guide me to my tomb,
Never once the devil that would keep me trapped here, within this dreaded room.
I always felt that you would bring a smile back to this dying face,
Never once had I taken a look at the feelings which everyone tried to erase.
I always wished that life would revolve around anyone who wished they could be me,
Never have I focused my attention on the ones who cared for no fee.
Jumping off my apartment floor was the best thing I could ever do for you.
...How else could I stop your pain?
.....Your tears?
.......Your suffering?
How else could I take away your scars?
Every time you fell, I couldn't catch you.
Every time you cried, I wasn't there.
And if you were about to die, I could never save you.
Every time I failed you would give me a second chance, With every second chance I was given all I could return to you were more scars.
Every attempt I ever made to help you were all in vain, all I did was bring you more unbearable pain.
But not this one.
This time I'll make things right, I will diminish all you
When every tear falls for the same reason,
No one ever notices your hurting.
When every wound is self inflicted,
Everything you own becomes a weapon
When every story has the same ending,
all the pages torn and good chapters missing.
When everyone you love is gone,
And all that's left is the scars they've drawn.
That's when you will know what it's like to bleed.
When your favorite light is the one that never shines,
And a smile is the thing you miss least.
When your favorite toy can never play,
And your telephone never rings.
When the one you love most is with another,
And you find comfort in knowing they are being treated better
I want someone I can love,
Someone I can hold in my arms,
Someone I can kiss goodnight too.
I want someone I can talk too,
Someone who can help me solve my problems,
Someone who can say they love me back.
I want someone I can present,
Someone who looks great and my friends all admire,
Someone to brag about to make me seem superior.
I want someone I can push around,
Someone who'll come back to me,
Someone who won't frown.
I want someone I can deceive.
Someone who won't know when I'm with another,
Someone to backup too, when the other isn't not around.
I want someone I can abandon,
Someone who has a heart to tear out,
Someone I
"How painful is death? Is it more painful than the life I'm living now?
..Is there anything more painful than the life I'm living now?"
Those were the questions you asked me the night before you died. Your beautiful eyes staring deep into mine, watering as I failed to respond. I couldn't comprehend the pain you were going through, not then.
Seeing you lie in your casket brought me more tears than oceans could hold; more memories than I could handle, each of them tormenting, reminding me of what I have lost.
Crying to sleep and waking from a nightmare of you has become just as routine as breathing, as well as just as important.
Every smil
Don't forget the heart by onigiri-mikachi-chan, literature
Literature
Don't forget the heart
Don't forget the <3
Don't leave me here alone.
You've taken what you've given,
Cheap, false hope.
This "love" you gave to me,
Would you take it so quickly?
I would walk five thousand miles,
Just to see a simple smile,
In the end of my words,
Is a lasting impression,
But this is all I've given,
A lie.
I just want to see your eyes shine,
I just want you to be happy.
That's what true love is, right?
But why can't I be the one to make you happy?
It's been almost half a year now.
Doesn't it seem impossible?
Don't these words put you to shame?
No, and they won't.
They'll never reach you,
For they aren't mine own.
Hate
The embodiment of sorrow
Drooped down does the soldier sit
Within continuous anguish
All of the above
I wait for you but
This wait is everlasting
And I cannot pull through
All I need is the answer
The finale of questions
All I need is hope
To cleanse my distress
How long have I sat here?
Fighting for nothing
Throwing roses into
The abyss, so cold
For so long Ive been dead
Tie together rope and
Put it to my raft
To sail away from this place
Your vindictive eyes
Your perverse thoughts
Tell me its ok
Tell me it will be alright
Say it to me although
You know I wont last
This fight
How long have I
Love only knows pain by onigiri-mikachi-chan, literature
Literature
Love only knows pain
Love is silly,
Love is for fools.
All that love does
Is make us to tools.
Stutter, and stare.
Wish you were "there".
It makes us jealous,
Angry, sad.
Terrified, angsty, weapy, mad.
Turns us to fools,
I tell you,
Turn away.
You'll see love around someday.
Be careful my friend.
Or it might just come to the end.
I'll prove how much it can cost.
If any love is lost.
But don't listen to me,
I'm bitter,
A twit.
You're better off in love,
It's a game for fools,
But atleast love has benefits.
Lay awake all night
Can't escape from this fight inside
The window's heartbeat shatters softly
Malevolence; perfect gift to kill me
The agony fades to light
Relief disappears entirely from sight
A misjudged situation
In an oportunistic mood
Screaming by myself
I can't help but hate my ownself
Looking for my thoughts
The pain of loss always bleeds inside me
Nihilistic fortitude of repercussive insights
I bite the bullet; plead and scream
This terror plot taken flight
With this supposed acrimony
The suffering turns real
No restriction cast over me
An unnamed way of feel
Everyone is to blame
Destroying our good name
We killed them all
We're going to fall
Everyone's dead
Perfection
A stupid word
The shoes that we'll never fill
Now I'm tearing off my face
To remind me that I'm whole
Ripping out our hearts
Replacing all our thoughts
You can't hide shame
It's always the same
Running from the truth
Perfection
A stupid word
The shoes that we'll never fill
Now I'm tearing off my face
To remind me that I'm whole
You can't be like them
I can't be like them
We can't be like them
And it's all our faults
You can't be like them
I can't be like them
We can't be like them
And it's all your fault
Why is it like this?
Mismatched pairs of unrequited love,
Thrown together,
No cares,
Torn asunder,
The way this goes,
This simple prose,
I want to say these words,
Have you hear them,
But you'll never read them.
These are things you'll never know,
I should know these things,
So many things you'll never read,
Yet I write to you everyday.
My Blackbird,
But you are not mine.
I have this Bluebird,
But love me he does not.
You said you cared,
And I did too.
But some reason things aren't going the way I wish they could have.
There are so many things I wish I could tell you,
I wish you would know,
But these things,
You
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So was walking around town today then all of a sudden a paper flew into my face i took the poem in my hands and read it it was a really good poem and i don't know who wrote it but i think i should probably put it up on deviantart because whoever wrote it might find it so now it's in this journal entry below if you read it and its your please tell me so i can return the poem to you
When being the boy where I am young,
my father carried me
in order to look at the march band in the city.
He is brought up it is the son
being struck, is broken the rescue person
when and it is absurd and being you called?
Because as for him in order
to lead
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